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Ok, so I came to blogger with full intentions of deleting my blog as I NEVER actually blog.  But, I could not bring myself to do it.  I am not a scrapbooker, my last two kids do not even have baby books and my two older kids hardly have anything written in theirs.  I need to be better about recording our lives and this really it the simplest way, I just need to make it happen.  I think I may be able to manage it at least once a week, we shall see.  During summer I think it will be easier and maybe I can develop a habit that lasts through the school year.

Ok, what have we been up to lately, well, the big girls are playing indoor soccer this year.  Sooooo fun, our last game is tomorrow.  I love watching them play, unfortunately John's schedule has not allowed him to attend one game which has been a bummer for both him and the girls.  He hates missing things, the girls are getting used to it as it is just the nature of having a fire fighter for a daddy.  Ellie has really blossomed this season and is doing well.  Emma is pretty shy out on the court but she actually got in there a little at the last two games and that is fun to see.  Her coach thought she hated her because she never talks and often times does not smile.  I wish people could see my shy girl at home sometimes.  She talks a lot and has a smile so beautiful it is often the first thing I notice when I walk into a room.  Olivia is fairly miserable at the games, she runs around like a caged animal set free and I leave frustrated with her most games.  That's ok, tis' only a season, right!  Sophie is pretty chill most games and likes to nurse most of the time making it difficult to tackle my wild Livvie, I think I am the one that misses having John at the games most of all as it would be nice to have a second pair of hands!

School is about to come to a close for the  year although much to the girls dismay, we are doing a bit of summer school.  I think Ellie needs a little extra help in math and Emma, while having come so far this year in her reading could use a little extra practice before becoming a third grader.  I will have a fifth grader and third grader next year, holy cow, I can hardly believe it.

I guess one of the biggest happenings around here is that I am pregnant again.  Seriously I am not sure what God is thinking in that he keeps blessing me with these sweet babies.  Lord knows I do not deserve them and there are so many other woman who are such better mommies than me.  I will do my best though and I am so grateful to Him for them because I know that it is only by His grace that we have these kiddos.  It was about 14 years ago that they told us that we would never have children!  Each time I get pregnant I feel guilt, I do not know why God chose to heal our infertility issues, but I am grateful, and I continue to pray for the women who want to be mommies so badly.

Well, I am off to try to get a little rest.  I do not know if it is my age, because I am nursing a little one or what but I am wiped out this time around.  I sleep a lot!  John is good to me when he is home and he lets me sleep in and take naps.  I go to bed early too.  I am 11 weeks so I am thinking not too much longer and I will feel a little better and not be so tired.